This year I may struggle to let them go. This year I may struggle
because last year I didn't... and last year I should have. The past, history...
things not being what I had hoped. Things not being what they could have been
or should be for every 7 and 5-year-old girl. My uncertainty, a reminder of the
fear to trust.
When we release them, it is not
to the teachers, bus drivers... bullies or friends. When we release them it is
to God. And that is a whole other wave of trust we are asked to ride to
shore.
They are more resilient then
you give them credit for... You can mess them up as much as the next
guy... (Is this really what you are asking of me again?) In this place will
you allow your mind go to worse case or will you hold my hand, and ride that
next wave so that I can bring you to a deeper place of understanding?
I have drawn the sacred in your
heart. You have treasured these things as you should. They are not forgotten,
they are only memories... memories that hold no power, do not control emotions
that once held you captive...
But as I think of that bus
pulling up... and their eyes dancing with excitement for another first... I
refuse to ruin moments because of my fears, my regrets. It is with certainty
that I again know the sovereignty of YOU. YOU who are my rock, a refuge in
which I can trust. A refuge where I will rest, trust, with purpose seeping from
each tear, destiny marching with the pounding of my heart, hold them close,
then release... the same love has pushed and released its way through death and
into eternity millions of times without me. Nothing new under then sun, not
even in the good things of this life.
As purpose seeps with tears,
and destiny climbs those too high to reach stairs of the bus without me... I
choose to trust. I choose to believe that all is as it should be, could be, and
always will be. I choose to trust that you live outside of time and see their
lifelines at the beginning as at the end, all held in the palm of your hand. As
you weave people, lessons, allow life to shape, pass beside them through the
fire to bring forth gold, I see now that surrender was not even an option... because
they have always been yours. I hold them close with hands wide open to feel
them pull away... back into you... snuggled close to your heart, safer then my
own.
Father, children are a gift.
Let us never hold them so tightly that they cannot breath... as you give
knowledge through others to them, may that knowledge become wisdom that is
known for purpose outside of our human understanding. Pour revelation through
them for us, as we journey together, closer to you. Help us to know their
hearts, as the heart of a child is needed to enter the most sacred of spaces
with you. Protect their minds, preserve them as your chosen ones. May we learn
in our weakness where you remain strong, and in our mistakes the resiliency of
these beautiful bundles of life you have given us. Breath into us the newness
of life we see in our children. Help us wonder, explore and seek you around
every corner, and in every moment of every day... and do not allow our shortcomings
scar the next generation. You are our healer... heal us so we are well, good
and pure before you in all that we do. We anticipate all that you will do, and
revel in all that you are already doing as you speak to the hearts of every
child on earth. Thank you. Gather, and show us what part we hold in that. Amen.
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