Anxiety is fear manifested... fear of failure, fear of loosing control, fear of not measuring up, of the unknown. Fear manifested shows up in my life as escape, or addiction. It naws at my insecurities and tricks me into thinking that I am not where I should be... trusting, obeying.
Obedience takes great courage. Sometimes the map of obedience presents itself one piece at a time, you know where you need to be, and where you will end up, but are not sure which route to take.
Trust takes great courage. Trust that God will sustain, trust to hear clearly, not taking on too much or too little as God continues to redeem unknown disobedience.
Can you trust and obey in an anxiety sort of way? Can you run toward the darkness, trusting God lights it up as you do? Can you invite others and watch their way light up as you walk together?
It always ends here. Trust. Learning to trust, difficult to trust. And to think the creator of the world trusts. That he included his creation in sustaining and maintaining all that is made to glorify Him. To trust as the creator trusts. To obey as Jesus obeyed.
