God is Sovereign

All the peoples of the earth

    are regarded as nothing.

He does as he pleases

    with the powers of heaven

    and the peoples of the earth.

No one can hold back his hand

    or say to him: “What have you done?”

(Daniel 4:35)

Our God is in heaven;
    he does whatever pleases him.

(Psalm 115:3)

God, the blessed and only Ruler, the King of kings and Lord of lords, 16 who alone is immortal and who lives in unapproachable light, whom no one has seen or can see. To him be honour and might forever. Amen.

(1 Timothy 6:14b-15)

If we truly believe God is sovereign, then to blame another human being when things go wrong also gives them credit when things go right.

Recently I had to ask forgiveness from someone to whom I blamed for putting me out of commission for about 2 months. They planted a seed which I watered, gave sunlight to, and carefully transplanted into the deepest of sacred spaces of my soul. Roots grew quickly, new thoughts and patterns began to develop and then a dandelion emerged. Once the plant was recognized as a weed, it was just as quickly drawn out by the root and discarded.

The seed was a lie. A lie that attacked the core of who I was, who I am. A lie that happily journeyed with me into fictional places of my mind, leading with just enough truth to keep me chasing it for answers. 

Words spoken out loud bring light. Words that are lies which have taken root like to stay hidden, creeping in the darkened hallways of the mind. Once spoken out, a few things happen; You realize how ridiculous the lie sounds in the open air, and to your own ears. You also have another person that has heard your words and assesses them through their lens. Wise discerning council will either confirm or reject what you have just said. This is a gift.

For two months I hid. I believed and nurtured a lie. For two months, my participation in work, family, and friendships all slowly deteriorated. (Hiding is not something I am good at.) Once the lie was known, blame came. I blamed the giver of the seed, the ones who helped nurture and water it, who pointed me to the best keeper of the seed. But blame was not the point. The seed of why it took root so quickly, or why I hid, wasn't the point.

None of the most immediate answers was the point... they rarely are.

With every physical lesson learned on earth there is an equally learned lesson in the spiritual realm. Sometimes revelation of both is given, sometimes we are given a glimpse into the higher purpose and we are able to actually chew on the truth that very little of this has anything to do with us. This is a humbling place to be. In pain, in sorrow, knowing God is sovereign and will do what he wills ... for his purpose, moving through those who are willing to be used, and sometimes it truly feels like you were used... and not in a good or fun way... but in a higher purpose and God ordained way. 

To be a mere human and have the God of the universe work through you for His purposes and glory is the point. Please do not lessen the value in Him choosing whom He chooses, and in accepting this privilege also know that His will is not ours. His will is not always easy. His will is not always understood. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Rom. 8:28) Notice HIS PURPOSE. Not our wants, our needs, but His purpose. 

ALWAYS search for the higher purpose, laying aside your own feelings, needs and wants aside. Blaming others when something goes wrong is just as crazy as giving them credit in your life when things go right. God alone is the author of it all. God wills through those who know their insignificance to show His significance through them. We are not the point. Our God is in heaven; he does whatever pleases him. (Psalm 115:3)