Your Master Plan

Sometimes your word doesn't feel like it's enough.

I want so much more of you.

then you show me...

The Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us.

The Word became spirit and made His dwelling in us.

You knew.

Your word now living, breathing, illumination, beckoning. Convicting, forgiving, revealing.

placed in every man and woman, child and infant

your word, the truth, the light

The light shines in the darkness

and the darkness does not recognise it.

You knew.

To some the smell of death, to others life giving.

Life changing, life healing, life eternal.

Your word, flesh; among... your word, spirit; in

And now you have your way in me.

As you wrap your word, Holy Spirit and place in us a light that will not be put out. A light that will shine brighter as times become darker, as the chasm between life and death widens. Times try to run from its maker as you allow every detail in your judgment, your grace, your mater plan.

Master plan. Master, planed.

already gone before,

standing behind,

and walking with us through.

You engulf all of time, and enter in, with me here, now. Scaling down, and back not becoming less, but to be more in me, when it is really all about you.

Your word is enough, more than enough. All of you overwhelms me, surrounds me, becomes me as the light shines in this once dark place; and I have recognised it, not just once, but in every moment as you renew every cell in my being with your life giving word. your spirit, your self.

You know... and in my limited understanding of an unlimited You, you are.

You word will always be and no words could express even as you created our words, there are none to express You. YOU ARE, and I am... hidden in the one and only I AM.

Your Word, is you, and it is more than enough.

connections...

Have you ever had a connection, one that feels deeper, eternal... you wonder if the Father sighs at two finding one together... They push, they rest, they endure all you throw at them and you do the same for them, in the power of the Spirit... Like the Father Himself, for a moment tore every barrier of fear and lack of yourself from your mind and put into your heart another... No library of wrongs, or overdue books lurking, no bank deposits and withdraws to come... just complete freedom with caution thrown to the wind the mutual payback exploring what it is to be another... different from you and yet recognizable still as in a mirror, a dimly lit mirror in which we one day will see and know all things not yet known to man. To know and be fully known. To choose to be known and fully know...

There is no fear in love... love is not hidden... love is not something... it is not given or taken... it is someone of free will, of understanding far greater than our minute human minds could fathom. Love is active, as is truth and all things eternal. Love without truth is not love.

And in truth it is impossible to be fully loved and fully known by any person. Even the deepest places of our hearts are hidden to self... as the Spirit searches He finds and all things may be brought to light. No Spirit, no light... no being known, no truth, no fear... no love.

Why we were made... to love and be loved... in the Father, in the Son, through the Holy Spirit.


Have you ever lost a connection. One from fear, one from potential damage to a journey you had once been on... that is no longer. One that drained every bit of love you could squeeze from your parched heart... one that you could mourn the rest of your existence, in search for such a love as this again? Could such a closeness ever be known, ever be shared, ever tie your heart up again? Questionable dependence, needed affirmation, always holding onto what has slipped from hands weakened with the clutch of desperation spilling over... over the edge of where you thought your trust would never return.

Trust in someone that does not exist, because no man is trustworthy. Only the holder, inventor, edge of your end, fallen over and caught you in the end can be trusted. The one that looks with you in a mirror, created your reflection and the mirror, the holder of all things beyond, seen in the shadows, working in the deepest parts of you that you search for... He is the one to be trusted.

...He makes something, something from nothing, not from things already known, but of things unknown, not yet created until his breath of life breaths a word, and in the beginning, He is. He makes with a thought, that can only be a thought to our words, but spans the ends of the beginning and the end... a thought known to us, but something different to Him. Complexities made simple as He holds all things and spins such beauty with his very existence..in hands that are only words to Him.

His existence given to man, living in each who asks. He can be trusted.

And as you see his existence in others, you will recognize His voice in each. As you hear and recognize that voice you can trust in the hand holder of all things... the breather of new, never been before life. When you find you are given your trust spot again, trusting others is the simple act of trusting in Him.

Trust him in having a connection, trust him in the loss. In time, as He meets you at the end, outside of time you will see... it is all the same. loss is gain... in his loss you were to gain... and always will. He is to be trusted and connections are given and taken away, for He will receive the glory either way.

Waves...

At North point beach...

"In this world you will have trouble, but take heart, I have overcome the world..." - Jesus Christ The crying could not be confused for anything but what it was; complete and total irrational fear. As we stood in ankle deep water, filled with terror, clinging to me as if I was her last life support. In gentle calming tones, I talked her down... "...the waves all have a breaking point. They only get so high then they have to fall over themselves. Every wave does this... this one, and that one... just hold my hand, don't let go, and if they get too high, I can pick you up, and carry you..." And then HIS voice catches me off guard, and rings so true in my spirit... "...and so it is with the troubles of life..." In fear we often give up and never allow ourselves to see the wave cap, break and experience the ride that follows. Every wave has a breaking point. God has given each of us a depth of faith in amidst the waves. For some, ankle deep is where He has asked them to be, for others treading water. Movement to deeper water requires love, trust, obedience... never letting go of our fathers hand as he speaks in gentle calming tones... "In this world you will have trouble, but take heart, I have overcome the world..." For the rest of our time she played in ankle deep water's, holding my hand... but my prayer is that one day she will be given the desire for deeper waters, cling to the Fathers hand, and tread water with the Saints for His glory... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6mAvt3CxEQM

Balance and Seasons

"There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:"
-King Solomon

Balance. That is what the world is after. 

Seasons. This is what I am after.

Balance says, you must do all things all the time and keep them all in the air to be equally as important.

Seasons says, this is what you have been given, have grace for the things you cannot do.

Balance says, all of these pressures are on you, and it is your job to keep each of these pressures equally as important all of the time. 

Seasons says, you are to focus on a few things that has been given to you, and do them well.

Balance says, do all that you can do as it comes at you.


Seasons says, all that I give you will not overwhelm.

Balance says, you are greatest when you can do all of these things with the equal amount of skill in the equal amount of time all the time.

Seasons says, you are greatest when you are at your worst and call out for MY help to do them together.

Balance says, when you drop everything you have been keeping up in the air, I will tell you to reset and start over to do the same thing over and over and over and over again.

Seasons says, when you drop everything, rest, learn, heal, for this too is a season. There is nothing you can do that hasn't already been planned for you.

Balance says, do all of this all at the same time...
  be born and die,
  plant and uproot,
3   kill and heal,
  tear down, build,
4   weep and laugh,
  mourn and dance,
5   scatter stones and gather them,
  embrace and refrain from embracing,
6   search and give up,
  keep and throw away,
7   tear and mend,
  be silent and speak,
8   love and hate,
  war and peace...
all at the same time with equal amount of intensity and importance all the time.

Seasons says, 
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens,
    a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
4     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

Balance says, Its not easy, it is inevitable that you will try your whole life to achieve me...but in the end with all of your hard work, you may find self fulfillment.

Seasons says, come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.


Replace Seasons with Jesus.

(Inspired from a question I had asked Carey Niewhof, thank you)

Harvest

Picking a harvest must be done at just the right time. We pray for harvest, but are we ready? Are we open to Him making us ready? Search me and know me, know my innermost thoughts. Search me and see if there is any offensive way in me. "When you pick the weeds you have to get the whole plant, not just the top. It might look like you have gotten all of it, but the roots will begin to grow and choke out the plant if you don't get it all. Get all of the root, don't miss any of it..." The roots that keep us from harvest run deep. Individually, corporately. Have you actively allowed God to get rid of the weeds? The roots? Killing the weeds, roots being the most painful, but also the most effective. Only Jesus can do that, and only if you believe He can. And He can... will. We pray for the harvest, when repentance is what we need. His yoke is easy for he is gentle and humble in heart. Allow the weed picker to pick; the roots will die, resurrecting in us a harvest that will flow from the heart of God to the people of the world...

Basic Camp recovery 101...

Last week I helped out at church camp. 170 kids, 7:30 am until 5:30 pm... 5 days of camp.

HOME: dishes, laundry, vacuuming and cleaning

SPIRIT: Reading the word, listening, Praying

Daily disciplines that show I care. Daily chores that show signs of life.

Monday the following week I am left depleted. Depleted but still still caught in the undertow of love in my heavenly Father... Still needing to do general maintenance around the house, general maintenance in my Spirit.

Seasons... I know. Grace... I hear ya.

As much as I don't miss doing the dishes or laundry, I do miss the peace having it finished brings. I miss the cleanliness, the making it shiny and new.

I do miss the doing and praying and reading, spending focused time with Jesus... The consequences being much the same as the above. I miss being made clean, the process of being renewed.

Recovery from a weeks chaos. He will move swiftly to get me caught up on all I have missed out on this week. He had never stopped moving, I had slowed in my seeking...

...and even in my slowing there is a plan... and in the awareness of it all He works for the good of those who seek Him with their whole heart.

Recovery... Grace... Getting caught up... all part of the plan.

I AM

"...And God said to Moses, “I am Yahweh—‘the Lord. I appeared to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob as El-Shaddai—‘God Almighty’—but I did not reveal my name, Yahweh, to them..." Exodus 6:2-3 (NLT)

"As God walked with His people through generations, He has progressively revealed His nature according to His purposes and the needs of His people." (Henry Blackaby)

What part of God is He revealing to this generation of believers that no other generation Has ever seen? 

Ask Him. You will be surprised what He says...

Father we are desperate to know you. You for you. I AM for I AM. Thank you for your son, Jesus, for paying for all we have ever done that separated us from your love. Jesus, who brought us from death, renews who we are through your spirit and makes us completely new. Jesus who was there in the beginning and will be there in the end. You are perfect, you are Holy, and yet you want to show us more of you. Show us I AM, what is your heart for this people, for your chosen bride? Your kingdom come... speak, for we are listening...