"Not all struggles we have are a direct result of being "attacked" by satan. Sometimes it is our "failure" to submit to God and put Christ first..." was a text a friend sent to me last night. Gotta love receiving a text like this when you are in the middle of a frustration temper tantrum with God. So enlightening, so knowing and telling is a text back...
"Very true." What is one to say when a tantrum is slowly turned into a melting heart, and the dripping, oosing melding metal is warmed again... burning away accusations from an all too familiar place clung to in times of desperate wisdom needed.
The rightly place pointed finger of blame... as the log is tweezed from my eye, and the Truth is placed back in authority, Jesus whispers... "I know, rest, ask, and it will be given, to overflowing, ask."
5 If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. 6 But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do. (James 1:5-8)
Submission to only God. Ask expect. No running around to others asking, seeking. He waits in anticipation, the Lord looks to strengthen those whose hearts are turned to Him... Why would he not give wisdom? Show the way? Has my heart been turned to Him? I had been foolish, and just as the writer of 2 Chronicles states, "at war."
"The eyes of the Lord search the whole earth in order to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. What a fool you have been! From now on you will be at war.” (2 Chron. 6:9)
The difficulty with being strong in personality and presentation is one owns strength. Leaning, rather standing on, no, being carried by and submissive to Jesus, for his yoke is easy to bear. Being yoked to, as He offers timeless wisdom from all knowledge beyond mans understanding, and I settle for what others... or worse, what I might think or want. So pathetic, humbled, refocused... then honored.
"29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” ( Matt. 11:29-30)
"For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”
Rest for my soul, had it been that long? A post Christmas refocusing had been needed... a calling from my Lord, not a self-forced New Years resolution call. A new call to complete surrender, free falling and rest in His arms.
Father, I am nothing in this place and time. All that matters in your will be done, and your glory revealed. I am so sorry for seeing myself as more than I am. For trusting my eternal eyes when I have access to yours. Forgive me. Help me to always know my place in the span of eternity. Open the eyes of my heart. Help me to know wisdom beyond my understanding, teach me your ways, give me a never ending hunger for your deepest desires. Include your people in them, do not pass us by. Awaken your bride from this deep slumber. In Jesus name, and for His sake, and the sake of your kingdom come, amen.
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